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Di Jakarta lagi....

Setelah 3 tahun yang menurutku membosankaan itu, mengapa berada di kampung halaman justru terasa lebih membosankan ???
Apa sebenarnya yang telah hilang dari semua kegilaan yang ada dan pernah gwe rasakan dulu ???

JAkarta sekarang terasa sangat diluar kendali ??? keadaan disini sekarang lebih kacau.
Keadaan liar ini sepertinya sudah sangat diluar batas.. mungkin karena gwe sudah sangat terbiasa dengan ketenangan yang ada di Pekanbaru.

Jujur ada perasaan sedikit asing setelah berada sesaat disini, semuanya jauh berbeda sekarang. Gwe merasa lebih rindu dengan ketenangan dan kehangatan Bebi gwe... :-(
TApi dengan bisanya gwe berada dalam lingkup keluarga yang lama pernah gwe tinggalkan cukup bisa membuat gwe sedikit menyisihkan kesunyian hati di kampung halaman gwe ni.

Pffuhhff.. kutukan Kota Bertuah itu masih bereaksi hingga saat ini.
walah, kok jadi kaya gini ya ????

Untold story of my new Boss

This job seems more harder everytime I through it,

I’m out the handling of my job description.. I don’t know, it seems out of my knowing of my job.

It’s totally different among my mission and my job description.

Yeaah, I’m floating on it.

Ironic…

 

I’m from the management side, and my mission is being an enemy for my client.

I must keep watching everything happens, especially watch my client’s acts.

Yeah, sounds easy but it’s tottaly hard for me cause the truth is I’m on the wrong side.

Damn !!!!

Yup, the side that I work for is “The Mafia”.

They’re lying to all of our client, and make them crush on financial side.

Shit !!!!

My Management makes me to be a stupid donkey, so, they could brought me into they crime.

I’m absolutely punked !!!!

Now, I’m confuse for having it all.

I mean for having this all fake missions…. It’s all just Fake !!!!

This company is on crisis causes by them. By that liars !!!!

 

It feels so useless to keep struggling and fight for my mission.

Maybe it’s better for me to getting away and stay out of trouble.

Huuffht…. Why my life is being dillematic like this ???

 

Gwe di pecat.....

Damn !!!! Sore kemaren Big Boss gwe langsung nelpon ke Outlet gwe, terus dia tanyain kenapa omset bis turun periode bulan ini, gwe jawab " Ya, emang lagi sepi pak sekarang.. Pengunjung mall nya aja juga sepi kok ". Tapi dia gak mengacuhkan alibi gwe dan tiba-tiba aja langsung bilang klo gwe dipecat.

Anjing !!!!!

PAdahal di cabang gwe yang baru ini gwe gak ada ngebuat kesalahan apa-apa, tapi dengan segala alasannya dia, dia sepertinya berusha mecat gwe....
Gwe mang tau dari dulu kok klo dia mang sensi bgt ma gwe... bahkan rasanya emang dari awal gwe kerja di perusahaan dia...

Bangsat !!!!

Jujur emang gwe rada kaget juga awalnya dia bilang kaya gitu, tapi gwe tau dan sadar kok klo hal kaya gini mang bakal terjadi dan menimpa gwe di perusahaan itu. GWe cuma spontan langsung bingung aja mo kerja dimana ???

Shit !!!
Tapi untungnya gwe masih punya Channel di perusahaan lain yang masih bisa nerima gwe, tapi konsekwensinya adalah gwe harus menjalin LDR ( long Distance Relationship ) ma Bebi gwe.... karena gwe bakal ditempatin di Bali. karena cuma disana yang lagi kosong posisinya.
Gwe sih mau-mau aja pergi ke dan ditempatkan disana, apalagi BAli kan emang tempat impian gwe buat disinggahi.... tapi klo balik ke masalah perasaan ????

Anjriiittt !!!!

klo udah kepentok ma masalah perasaan emang gak akan ada yang bisa jawab deh, itulah yang bikin sekarang gwe mesti kembali berhadapan dengan yang namanya Dillema !!!!!
Disatu sisi gwe butuh bgt kerjaan, tapi disatu sisi lain jga gwe gak bisa jauh dari Bebi gwe di Pekanbaru ini.... Klo pun untuk ngebawa dia ikut ma gwe gak mungkin juga kan, kecuali gwe ma Bebi udh resmi nikah mungkin bisa aja.

Sialan !!!!

Kenapa semuanya harus mendadak kaya gini ya ??? bikin gw dapet masalah aja !!!!!
Sebenernya sih gwe pengen nanya-nanya kerjaan di pekanbaru dulu, yaaa siapa tau masih ada celah kerjaan di kota ini setidaknya biar gwe bisa gak berjauhan ma Bebi. Tapi klo gak dapet juga ??? mo gimana gwe ???? gak mungkin kan gwe nganggur-nganggur aja di kota ini.....

Totally stress !!!!!!

bingung mo minta tolong ma siapa buat dapet kerjaan disini ????
apa masih ada ya kesempatan gwe buat tetep berdomisili disini ???? Setidaknya mpe gwe nikah deh ma Bebi, abis itu klo pun mesti dapet kerjaan yang diluar kota kan gak masalah karena gwe juga dah nikah ma Bebi....

Dammit !!!!!!
I've no idea for anything ???? apa gwe mang mesti ke Bali ya ???? apakah itu yang di takdirkan ma 4JJ buat gwe ????


I hope everything's gonna be alright............... amin.

Bad part makes Bad ugly mood

Wanna to get sum' chill condition,,

 

Damn,, i've fight again with her.  i hate her treating me that way. She so stubborn, it's hard to control her even with thousand ways.

Never knew what i was missing ???

I just want to get sumthing calming myself right now.. i'm trying now

 

It started with doing any useless job, get up of my chair and looking for any dirty to cleaning up.

it doesn't work enough..

and then i'm doing other way, it's take a look around @ this mall.. Seeing the celebration of music school with all the students perform their talent, but oh god... it's so boring !!!! i hate that show as i hate this day.

So, the last option is,, Listen sum music from my phone. A simply ways to get out from  rush in my head, and hey it's works !!!! really-really works !!!!

i feel my spirits growing high again, how come this simple thing could fix my rush ?? what a nice idea !!!

 

See, now i'm writing this email as usually i get posting my blog. Needs hard tryin' to make it happen, yup.. Now, i'm back on mood !!!!

i just wanna fogetting at all my last fight memory with her. I need to chill out, i need to down to earth for a while. Damn !!!!

 

Even, it always over and over again.  Thats fucking memory comes when i close my eyes, came right throuhg my blank spot. I can't running among this condition, i need to really-really get out of this memory.

 

Uuuffhh, how come she treat me like that ??

am i too selfish for this case ?? am i too over protected about her ??? do i not treating her like she used to be ????

 

uuffhhh.. when i ride it's till the day that i die. i'll keep move on. With or without you, i'm trying u know !!!

Shit, i really hate this part !!!!

But, i don't know why i keep  thinking it ?? for a whole day. It's hard to believe that we connect..

 

okay... okay.. it seems that i should shut up my mouth. Just let me blending with my misery..

 

UUffhhh.. Dammit !!!! could we go on and just take a bow ???