Hey dad…

I'm writing to you
Not to tell you that I still hate you
Just to ask you,
How you feel
And how we fell apart

…How this fell apart ??

Are you happy out there ??
In this great wide world
Do you think about your sons ??
Do you miss your little girl ??
When you lay your head down, how do you sleep at night ??
Do you even wonder if we're alright ??
But ,we're alright.
We're alright without you, Dad.

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried ??
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok but we're alright…

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years for learning how to survive
Now, I'm writing just to let you know
I'm still alive…

The days I spent was so cold, so hungry…
Were full of hate,
I was so angry.
The scars run deep inside this lip piercing.
There's things I'll take to my grave
But I'm ok…

I'm ok !!

Even sometimes I forget,
But, this time I'll admit
That I miss you,
I miss you…

Hey dad.

 

 

 

 

………Shay Stanley,

Damn for all of my complicated feelings.

I do really hate this Stockholm syndrome !!!!

I need 2 deadly shots in the back of my head,

For my pain, and for my memory of you, dad.